i am very sorry to hear for your loss.
The only relief that I can offer you is God's word. He still is the ruler of this universe and He knows and understands your dilema.
He will be with you through your struggles and He love you. Somehow, you have managed to make it this far, so He will guide you the rest of the way.
Do not fret, do not fear. Look to Him. Mathew 6:27.
Think on the blessings you have in your life, Give Him praise. Phillipians 4:8
I pray for you now. I pray for the renewing of your hope, renewing of your faith, and renewing of your strength. I ask Him to make a way where there is none. He said that He can open doors that no one can shut.
I also ask for mental stability for you. I ask for comfort for your wife and children.
You do not serve the economy. you do not serve mammon, you serve God. And He is able.